So there were plenty of questions and doubts when I left three years later, looking for love, a job that could pay the rent, and some kind of healthcare coverage. Was I selling out?
I've spent a lot of years mistaking big dreams and godly ambitions for financial stability and health insurance.
But I've also spent a lot of years thinking spiritual highs and shining in a spotlight were God's signs of favor in my life.
After leaving the dance company, I picked up a couple of jobs teaching dance. I realized I enjoyed it, and started grad school to get some credentials in it.
I married a wonderful man, we got pregnant 18 months sooner than we planned, and I dropped out of grad school to get a "real job." I still wonder if these were the right choices, or how life will turn, or if I'll ever return to something that was such a big part of my life for so long.
It's easy to feel that the busy seasons of life are more important, or that seasons in the spotlight are more esteemed, or that a season on bed rest is just a big waste of time. (My current full-time -- hopefully temporary -- job is hospital bed rest.)
But I'm seeing that life is less a Disney movie and more a miniseries, and what I see as drifting from the storyline might just be a new episode.
And the Author of all of this is pulling together our stories into something bigger and greater than we could ever imagine or write for ourselves.
A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps. Proverbs 16:9